It's December 21 today

Uma, if you read this, do you remember Dec21 three years ago ? Well, if you don't, I do well.

Real charmer ?

Uma... is a system file for me. I can't delete her at all from my memory !
This is in answer to a reader's comment about Uma. Dear all, look at my posts ... it  always starts with Uma.
The very driving force of this blog is Uma... and no one else.  Ionia, Kalyani, and a few other names ... they are all just shooting stars. They come shower and brighten up for sometime.. and then gone .. for ever.
But Uma is certainly not so. She is the moon in my life....  showering cool beautiful feelings in my heart.  After the Pournami, spread for a few years, now it's  Amaavasi ... a long one ofcourse. I don't know when the Pournami will return to me. But I hope and am sure, that will happen a day.  I'll wait !

The reader asked me how good a charmer I am .  I request him to go to  my posts of earlier days in this blog, and they may tell you what and how I am.  Please ... !

No, how can it be over ?

Uma  ... I wish her happy days !!

Igniting the desires

Uma ! Where is she ? 

If any of you ask me that question, yes... I can answer that. But I wonder ... and realise that I failed to understand women.

My motivator is away. Physically and mentally. Then, how can I write ? 
I know I am sleeping. Uma is not here to wake me up. Ionia (you may remember) too could not keep the fire. The fire in me is buried in the ashes of my memories. I have to ignite that up ... again !
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Another surprise and Shock ! Uma getting married !! ?

Uma is getting married shortly. That is certainly a surprise ... And a shock for me.
Yesterday, late in the evening, Uma called me.
"I have a surprise for you ..." she said.
"You make that everyday for me ... then what's so special about this ? " I asked.
"No... not so... this is very very important and you may ... may be ... you will get shocked.." she said.
"What's so shocking ? You really shocked me during Onam holidays..." I expressed my unhappiness over her not calling me.
"That's right... the new shock is the result of that shock ... Maamma..." she was a bit slow in her reply. Must be something interesting, I thought.
She then narrated the story - her experience- of what all happened during the last few days.
Her father is now successful in locating a bridegroom for his daughter. The 'boy' is a 40+ local man, working in the defense services. He is almost lone, as his parents are no more. His siblings are settled elsewhere. He is posted in the North, and may not return to this place in the near future.
Uma says, she has agreed for the marriage. In fact, this was the shock for me. Uma all these days (over the last few years) was reciting that she won't marry. Now that she has changed her mind, I really felt it a shock. "Women are unpredictable.." I remember Uma herself telling me.

For me, I am sure, I am losing a partner. All my dreams of building a new life is void now. I have been expecting her return. But now I know, I should not have dreamt of anything like that.
But my only worry is that why did she talk to me all that ... giving a new life (may be a new kind of life !). But it's all in the dark now.

I am not sad on that. I think I must be happy that Uma is getting a new life. Socially acceptable and may be... everything will be fine for her ! I pray for that.

Uma promised me that she'll be visiting me (with her father) sometime during next month. The marriage will be in Thulam. The date is yet to be firmed up.

She continued her descriptions on the marriage preparations. I've been a listener. And I'll continue to be so !

Januamma and my promises

Uma's absence is being noted by my readers (atleast by one !). That's about an unfortunate state in my current life. I agree with you dear Nonstiched, my output is really low since she left me. Really, she has been my driving force, not only for this blog but for my real life too.
At home, and at work ... I am a bit down ! But that won't kill all my energy. I'll be back soon... with more vigour and action. I am playing a game on that. { Afterall, life is a game of games ! }.

I am still in touch with Uma. She's at Vaikom. She loves to hear the cash registers ringing ! May be that's more melodious and sweeter than my whispers in her ears. But I continue drive my points .. She , I hope, will change her loving tunes to mine. I work for that these days ! But there's very strong pulling forces ther. Of Vasu and Padma.
Infact, Uma , at times hints me that she'd return any day. I think that would happen. If not today, tomorrow or the day after.
But I cannot indefenitely wait for that tomorrow. So, I madeup my mind to make my life back on track. Whether Uma returns or not, I'll get back to my active life. That's what I am plouhing into now.

And about my promise to give English versions. I am sorry, I didn't give the English versions for the last few short posts. I shall give them in a couple of days.
About Januamma.. I hope you know that Januamma is a character from Madhavikutty's short story { "Januamma paranja katha" } . Kindly wait for a couple of days , for its English Translation . An English transliteration may be very difficult, as the language is not normal Malayalam (but is hard core Malabar Malayalam !).

Lost in the problems

Uma is still at her garden ! Let all flowers blossom !
I am asking myself now. What happened to you for the last ten days ?
Sorry... I am very much here... but I am not able to write. My mind is scraping down barren hills. Let it get green !

Innocent Revelator

Uma, the spirit behind Innocent Revelator ! She ignites the sparks, for me to reveal. And so, here I am, the Innocent Revelator.

I am innocent ! I am here to reveal my self, and my life. That certainly includes Uma's too. And so I make revelations. Revealing the self and life of this innocent revelator. Here is the first revelation, that this innocent has many things to reveal.

They are not yet revealed. Now, being innocent, I wish to make revelations of all those unrevealed. Of all those happened, happening, and those that may happen.

I pray, you all will realise my innocence. And I pray, let all my revelations make you all happy.

{ Is it happy, healthy and wealthy ! ?}

You may respond to my revelations and those innocent experiences. So, please...., please come along ....

Remember, Uma is the spirit behind all my revelations.