Changes in life

Uma is yet to comeback. I don't know when that will happen. It's quite fuzzy about the future. Come what may, is the attitude now. What else can I say now ?
The point is that I am not in a position to command over her. Though Uma may expect me to do so, how can I do that ? After all, who is she to me ? My ? .. I don't know. For the rest of the world, though it's not a convincing answer. This is where I am getting stuck. I can't give a firm "do it" to Uma , Vasu or Padma. That's why I am patiently waiting for the next turn.

On Wednesday evening, I talked to Vasu. I adviced him to be practical. And that getting a job these days is very tough. So, having a job, and that too with me (where she enjoys freedom and status !) is no silly matter. I told him that the position is kept reserved for Uma, and I am waiting for her to return. I told him "Vasu, ... in her matters, I am equally responsible .. as you.. ". I think Vasu didn't get my exact message. However, he said "yes...yes... ". But the problem is Padma. She somehow wants to keep Uma away from me.

In the meantime something good is happening here. Remani will be my full time family member here. I told you earlier, that she lives with two of her sons, and spends the whole day-time here. It's just a bit away from my home. The first boy is already away and the second one is now leaving for his job (he breaks his studies, on getting a job). Remani is not left alone, and should not. So, she'll join me in a week's time. Her house will be rented out. With this, Remani will be a FULL member of my home. I am too happy about that. Afterall, she's my Remani !
And Remani too is quite happy about this. She, just at the hint of my decision, agreed to. She brought her sons last day to me. They too are happy. The boys are happy about maintaining the family relationship, closely. They are too concerned about their loving mother, and they want her to be safe and happy. That's why the younger one said "Maamma, Amma ... has no other preferences ... but to be with you here ... that's the best .. for all of us ..".

I smiled and said "yes Ramu.... I am happy dear ... Thank God, you took the right decision".

Conflicts and hard decisions

Uma called me yesterday night. As usual, the chat went on for long. Now, I am a bit concerned over her routine of chatting with me on the phone for so long time. What would Vasu and Padma think about this ? I told Uma not to talk for so long, as this may raise unnecessary feelings, and suspicion in their minds. Uma, had a very spontaneous reply "Maamma.. why are you scared... let come whatever it be.. I dare to talk to you ... and I dare to live with you.. ". She paused for a few moments. I called her 'hello... hello... ' on the phone, as I thought the line is interrupted. "Yes Maamma.. I am determined.." she continued.
I am sure Padma must have smelt it well. Afterall, she had a feel of the situation, while she was here for over a month. But she keeps mum on what she sensed.. may be that it suits her well ! Padma, it seems to me, likes the relationship Uma has with me. Afterall, she is jealous of Uma, and may like her unholy relationship with me. Padma is very shrewd too. She must be thinking (I think so !) that there's nothing unholy about Uma living with me.. and even this relationship would bring in good to Uma.. and to Vasu's family. I thaink this is what Padma must have in her mind. May be, I am wrong. Only time will tell you all.
My assessment of the situation is reinforced by the fact that, Uma is being pulled by her father to be with them. Vasu asked Uma not to get back to my place. Uma refused the demand from her father. But Padma is pushing her to be away from them. That's why she told Vasu that its good for Uma to be here.. she quoted the case of Uma's job. Uma was so high on projecting this in her favour.
This conflict, with the Vasus, is all the proof of their attitudes. Though Vasu (I think) has not smelt anything bad so far, he may do so shortly. But Padma is clever enough to make Vasu undoubted. That's what Padma wants.
I have my own concerns over this issue. How do I normalise this ? I love Uma.. I want her with me for all my life... and Uma being determined to be my life associate, I have a strong position.
But how to clear off the clouds ? I am not too sure right now. But I'll certainly do anything for this.. but I want everything to be soft ... no hard decisions and hardships ! and without hurting anyone. Yeah.. that takes time !