It's December 21 today

Uma, if you read this, do you remember Dec21 three years ago ? Well, if you don't, I do well.

Starvation

Uma certainly understands 'starvation'. Because, she has been starving for years, until she came to me. Since then, she is in abundance { Am I right ? Opposite of starvation is abundance ? }
But that's not the point here. I am starving ! True, I am starving since many months. It's since February !! I am yet to find a new saviour. Anyone around ?

It's green, but it's very hot !

Uma's sharp eyes always hits such images.  But this is not hinted by Uma. Maybe, she asked me to look at this image. It's a small piece of artwork !

But to be frank, it's  an ad of  a 'green building' !!

Remembering Onam with Uma

Uma must be very happy now. But I am sure she must be iterating the memories of ONAM she had with me. Afterall, it's not a very far history. A couple of years is really just next. So, everything must be quite warm ... even now !
Let me wish her a Great Grand Happy ONAM !!

Baggy designs

Uma used to comment on the baggy profiles. Like the one below...

Moods and my moods

Uma used to give me a lot of new ideas, especially on ads related to relationships.  That's all on those days when she was with me.  Now.... there's none of that smart sensible kind with me. So, I don't have a lady partner to discuss such things in its true spirits.
Last day I was travelling in a train (in second class chair car).  The seats are so crammed, it's difficult to relax. Nor I could take a nap. With frequent tea (horrible tasting !) I could not keep myself cooled. Infact my mind was not resting and was in a storm.
Suddenly, my attention went to my neighbors, a boy of 5/6 and his grand father.  The g/f was asking him loud to keep quiet. I was curious... why at all so. I didn't see the boy troubling his g/f in any way. The smart boy was sitting on his seat and reading the advertisements stuck / painted on the walls and on the seat rear.
The boy pointed his finger to the ad (sticker) he was facing on the rear of his front seat.  The ad read as :
"The only time she will love friction in a relationship".
The boy asked his g/f :  "Appooppa, what's the meaning of this ? ".
The g/f  read it, looked the whole thing ... and raised his eyebrows. A smile just flashed on his face. Suddenly he told his boy :
"I am sleeping... don't disturb.... Take your kalikkudukka (a childrens magazine) and read..." The g/f was avoiding the situation.
"But... Appooppa, ... please tell me the meaning and then sleep.." The boy was so  curious to know what it is about. He continued , pointing to another ad of the same kind on another seat back. That read as :
"The only time she won't complain when you're late".
The boy was restless and shook his g/f's shoulder. "Appooppa, you did not answer me both these... what's the meaning".
I could see the g/f  again reading both ads through his half closed eyes... and winking a smile... and continued his nap to silence the boy. But the boy continued to read the titles and other ads.
Suddenly , the boy then asked his g/f  loudly "What is moods appooppa ?"
Appooppan did not open his eyes, but closed his lips tight. The boy, leaving his g/f, gazed at other pastures in and out of the coach.

I thought about this for a while. Had I been in this g/f's position, what will I answer to the boy. Well.... I can answer... but it's too difficult to convince him. Had Uma been with me, I would have posed the problem to her. I am sure, she would have given me a very simple answer to tell the boy.

Oh... I didn't tell you what the ads are.  MOODS ... the condom.  Later I noticed that all 106 seat backs in the coach had the ad. Only the  phrases differed.

Real charmer ?

Uma... is a system file for me. I can't delete her at all from my memory !
This is in answer to a reader's comment about Uma. Dear all, look at my posts ... it  always starts with Uma.
The very driving force of this blog is Uma... and no one else.  Ionia, Kalyani, and a few other names ... they are all just shooting stars. They come shower and brighten up for sometime.. and then gone .. for ever.
But Uma is certainly not so. She is the moon in my life....  showering cool beautiful feelings in my heart.  After the Pournami, spread for a few years, now it's  Amaavasi ... a long one ofcourse. I don't know when the Pournami will return to me. But I hope and am sure, that will happen a day.  I'll wait !

The reader asked me how good a charmer I am .  I request him to go to  my posts of earlier days in this blog, and they may tell you what and how I am.  Please ... !

Kalyani certifies

Uma never gave me such certificates.  But, you know, years have passed. May be that made me different. Quite different it  seems. That's why I am sure,  Kalyani made such certification.

Kalyani is becoming more of an 'in person". But, I have my own doubts. With all that , she, over her two occassion's experience in sharing pleasures, certified me differently (from what I used to be !).
She said " ... you are not a good f***er .... but you certainly are a super heater .... a nice licker and a great sucker . ...".
Let me be happy with what I am , and what I can. That's reasonable... isn't it ? What do you say?

8PM for 8 Hrs' Peace of Mind

Uma had the pleasure of 8PM many times (during those days). However, she had warned me of it's ill effects many times. Thanks to Uma.
But the speciality of 8PM is that, by 8 PM  I forget everything bad of it, and remember only it's goodness. That's why the cupboard is open just before 8 PM and  the first sip goes in at 8 PM.  8 sips ( I take two pegs in 8 sips)  in a little over 8 minutes finishes the day-quota. That's all. This will ensure  deep sleep for 8 hours, (that's the time I have peace of mind) until I wake up at 6AM. Not at 8 AM !

Yesterday noon, when Kalyani  came for a quick visit, I asked her :
"Kalyani,  ee whiskey oru peg tharatte ? "
"Ayyo ... venda ... Annanarinjaal... enne konnukalayum .." Kalyani said.
"Aahaa... appo annanadikkaam... Kalyanikku tharaathe...alle ?" I asked her.
"Oo... annan ennum kaal kuppi adikkum... ippo pinne njanonnum parayaarilla.." Kalyani said with a smile.
"Adichaal pinne... ?..." I paused.
"Kidannurangum... pothupole... allaathennaa .." Kalyani completed.
"Pakshe, enikkangane urakkamonnumilla... Pinne urangaan kidannaal urangum athrathanne .." I said , looking sharp at Kalyani.
"Aaa... angane venam ... allaathe .." She paused, looking elsewhere and said thoughtfully.

The chat continued for sometime and Kalyani returned, giving me "drushyabhaagyam". But she motivated me by "Naale varaam ..".

Not all wishes

Uma must be smiling , when she learns that my wish didn't happen.  Let her smile! But that's true.
Last Sunday, with all hopes of something happening with Kalyani, I have been waiting all day. But she didn't turn up. The result was that I had a brisk activity at 8PM with 8PM.
Next day, I saw Kalyani with her Annan, entering their home with  heavy baggages (must be returning after a travel). . Yeah, she gave me a flashing smile. Next few days, until Friday (that's yesterday), nothing did happen, resulting in my wasting the whole day time , expecting miracles happening.
But yesterday, it was almost a miracle.  In the morning I went to my workplace and returned by lunch time (planning for a nap ! ).  My packed lunch, with the fish curry, was nice. Then I sat in the front balcony, with a magazine and frequent gazing on the other side. In a few minutes, Kalyani appeared and gave me a smile, which I promptly returned amplified.  So, Annan is not at home.  A few moments passed on, with my inviting looks and gestures. Kalyani must have felt pity on me. She went in, and I was disappointed.
may be about 10 minutes later, Kalyani came out, locked her doors, crossed the road, and walked in to my courtyard. In a fly, I's at the sitout, and opened the grilled door. I invited her in. Kalyani, with a smile, and a small packet in her palm, came in. She was in a mundu, red blouse, and a thorthu as randaamundu.
"saar oonu kazhicho ?" She asked.
"Ooho... Kalyaniyo ?"
"kazhichu... pinne innathe pathram vaangikkaamennu vichaarichu vannathaa " she said.
"pinnenthaa... tharaamallo... " with a pause I asked her "dhruthi illallo ? irikkoo".
"venda... venda... njaan ivide ninnolaam.." she was not in a hurry.
"haa... irikkoo... visheshangal chodikkaatte"  I prompted her to take seat, and she did respond positively.
She sat on the chair, opposite to mine.

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Is there light at the end of the tunnel ?

Uma may not like this. But I am sure she won't blame me either.  Anyway, why should she bother now? And why should I ??
No, I am not bothered about her now. But I do bear in heart the nice sweet thrilling moments she gave me (better to say, shared with me ! ). Gone are those days... Forget them... And live now.
That's why I started attempting for new meadows. And I think one is blooming now.
Remember Ionia ? She left me a few months ago. Infact she was in search of new pastures, money, position, and what not ?  She and her mother are now at the 'Venice of the East'. She's well off there. That's what she says. But she is in constant touch with me.
After a long spell of dry and dark days, I am seeing some light at the end.  Thanks to my new neighbor.
I have a new neighbor, just opposite to my place. A senior couple. Annan is employed, and wife Kalyani (let me call her so) is a housewife. Annan leaves for his work right early morning, and returns after sunset. The Nano family is quite happy with what they have, it seems.
My front balcony is a strategic location. I can see my neighbors. During the last two weeks, many many looks have flashed across.  Starting with sharp ones, now its cool and long gazing. Yeah... that's cool for both of us.
Annan and Kalyani called on me last week. In the evening, and had a long chat. They were more curious in my singular style life. I gave them just sufficient tips and answers to satisfy them. Kalyani, it seems, felt sympathetic on me.
May be that's why she started talking to me , the next day on, coming to my courtyard. She infact started advising me on how to manage life better !  I certainly gave her all my ears. And would do so.
Yesterday was Makarasankrathi, and Kalyani came to me in the morning. She brought me a cup of Paayasam.  I relished it right in front  of her. More than my tongue licking the cup, my eyes were licking Kalyani. She realised it, and enjoyed it. That's what her smile, with a drooping look at me told me. When I returned the cup, empty, she asked me "mathiyaayo ?".
"Illa... " I told her in a low tone.
"Ini naale tharaam ..." and she returned.
Today Sunday, I got ready right in the morning before 7am. I went to the balacony and scanned the other side of the road. But I couldn't get my target.
Right now, I am waiting for Kalyani. Sure she would turnup any time now.