Two drops of my heart

Uma is getting wedded today, At 12.15 noon.
I am not attending the function. Yesterday I talked to Vasu, and bluffed him about my (great !) inconvenience. In fact, he told me that he knew it earlier (about my absence). Padma must have hinted on my emotions. But Vasu was cool.
And I talked to Uma in the night yesterday. I wished her "all the best ". On my request, she agreed to remove all my contact details from her mobile phone. Though she said that's not any concern, I said that could be one for you. She cleared all call history too. But she would certainly call me. She can dial me anytime she wishes. So, I am left with a hope.... she may call me anytime... anyday... !

But today ... I've decided to spend the whole day with the warmth of her virtual presence here... and ofcourse embracing the gift she gave me. It gives me her 'choodum choorum'. Certainly, a few drops of the liquid gold would act as a catalyst for my thoughts and emotions to get volatile.

Pai, as usual, came in the morning, to take me to the office. I told him I am not well, and I am not going to office today. He was watching me ... rather staring at me. He is aware of the importance of this day.
"Sir... don't feel bad... don't cry .. you are childish.. " he said. I was surprised ! Am I crying ? Do I look like that ?
"But I am not crying ... why do you make such comments..? " I asked him.
"Sir.. your eyes are wet and watery ... I can see two drops shining in your eyes ... may be you are not crying..." he said in a very low tone.
"Why should I ..? but I feel feverish ... that's why.." I said.
Pai returned with specific reminder to call him if I need any assistance.
"Yes... " I told him. But I won't need anyone today ... I'll try to make myself live with the 'choodum choorum' of her.

I think the nature also is quite sad. That's why it's so gloomy and dull today. The nature is crying too. It rains intermittently here. I can also hear the feeble hiccups , the thunder. The nature has its emotions ... of grief and loss of hope. That's mine too.
The sun didn't dare to show himself today. He's hiding. That's why my mind is too dark today.