Jokes of the Supreme

Uma is very happy, it looks. Though she said a few words of consolation to me, I know she don't really mean that . After all, she is a lady. It's not surprising. Remember ? I told you once.. "four boobs never match..". That's why Remani's exit is a joy for Uma.

I had one of the most painful and disappointing experiences of my life last day. My "in-person" , and more of my "in-lady" is not with me now. Remani left me yesterday, for Bangalore, to join her son there.

I hope I told you that Remani's son (senior) got a job there. He wanted his mother to be with him. He is now capable enough to look after his mother.

Remani's son called me two weeks back. He asked me whether he can take his mother with him. Oh God, what else can I answer, but to say "Yes..Yes..". Infact, Remani was not too happy, as she has to leave me. But you know, the rules are not that way. She has to go with her son. How can she be with me for long, when she is "no one "to me. So, I asked Remani to prepare for leaving me.

Following days were quite tense for me . I could n't digest that I am left alone. But you know.. I've to live with the situations. Afterall, I am not inclined to trouble anyone. I wish a better life for Remani, than I could give her. But she knows well what difference it makes between her choices.

After two days, Remani agreed that she will join her son. She said she is not at all happy, but is leaving on two accounts.
It's her son calling.
It's me advicing her to join her son.
That was enough for her to decide positive on her shift. Next day I did arrange for her travel. I entrusted Pai to arrange for ticket, new cloths, and so on. Infact I wanted her to fly to Bangalore. But she insisted for a train journey.

Yesterday was, incidently, Edavam 1. Pai took her to the temple, early in the morning. On her return, Remani came to me, and sat with me, on my bed, for quite sometime. She didn't utter a word, nor I could. we exchanged our emotions through the eyes. But that was much more vibrant and meaningful than anything else. I could read her mind well, and may be she did that tto on my mind. She told me "I'll return shortly ..." . But I don't expect she could do that.

And she left by train in the afternoon. I did not go to the Railway Station to see her off. Frankly, I avoided the moment of farewell. I was afraid... I may cry.

But I did that at home. The whole of the day I was weeping... may be tears got dried up. But the 'liquid gold' saved me from a crash. Thanks to Pai for my stock of that sacred drink.

Pai returned to me in the evening. He too looked dull. I know , my feels are for him too. He always is empathetic. Pai stayed with me in the night too. He didn't want me to be left alone, and thats why he refused to return home that night.

Today, I decided to come out of my worries. So, I decided to have my routines as usual. Pai, however, managed to get me my essentials. That's how I am in my office now. Ionia was here a few minutes back. But I couldn't tell her any joke. May be I'll do that tomorrow. And you know, the life itself is a joke. The joke of the ultimate joker ! The supreme power ! And we are all pawns in the hands of this supreme joker.